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Dear Husband

This is the text that I gave my husband this morning,
We rarely fight, actually, we never fight I think?
Because he is the most patient man I ever have.
And because of that,
I will cherish and love my husband for life.
My MIH.

Sorry sayang because I often have panic attack.
I don't want you to stop loving me.
And I am glad I open up to you.
Because then only you will open up to me.
You even cried today.
And I am glad.
Because you have kept all your sadness for so long already hney.
Just let me see your vulnerable side too.
As much as I have shown you mine.
Love you Bibi..

Dear suami Ku.

I am so thankful and grateful to have you in my life.
To have another day with you.
To be with you. 
I know being with someone like me is not easy.
I have so many luggage to carry.
I have anxiety, panic attack, and often think too much.
I am introverted. 
I don't know how to mingle.
I am very timid and passive.

But thank you anyway.
For your constant support and love.
Undivided attention.
Overflowing love.
Never-ending duas.
And your warm hugs and kisses every time I need them the most.

I am sorry for making you cry.
I am sorry for all the headache and heartache that I caused.
I am sorry for every pain and hardships that I have to make you gone through.

But sayang.. just so you know.
I love you. I love u so much. 
never in my life, I love someone as much as I do to you.
never in my life, I feel so happy, thankful, and grateful.

so baby, please don't leave me.
love me.
love me till my last breath.
love me till Jannah.
as I never wanted you to leave me sayang.
my heart, my soul, my body.
all is yours syg...
all just wanting you.

my husband...

please cintai aku, disaat aku paling sukar untuk dicintai sayang..
di saat aku penuh dengan luka, duka dan pedih.
tapi jika semua ini sudah pergi. semua ini sudah pulih.
harapnya kau akan mendapatkan aku yang baru.
selayaknya memiliki aku yang baru.
disaat aku sudah pulih dan menjadi lebih hebat lagi.

inshallah kita boleh sayang.
syg boleh jd mcm arwah abah.
bby boleh jd lecturer. 
semua dengan usaha dan izinNya..

sayang lelaki terhebat buat bby.
lelaki yang sabarnya seutuh gunung,
hatinya baik seindah taman,
air matanya gugur menjadi rahmat hujan.
sayang suami yang terbaik.
lelaki yang terbaik. 
yang Allah ciptakan di muka bumi ini..

Love, EFN

Comments

  1. Unknown1 July 2020 at 05:54

    You make me in tears again my bby..
    Tears in joy, tears in thankful, tears in blessings..thank you my beautiful sweet lovely caring kind amazing wife~

    I promise to giving my best, to love you, hold you, and never leave you..for eternity!

    Ya Allah, moga jodoh kami berkekalan hingga kesyurgaMU..inshaaAllah, amin.

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    1. Faten Nurhidayah1 July 2020 at 18:49

      Amin Ya Rabb sayang, may your love and redha, become the reason Allah grant me His jannah. And we can go there together. Amin.

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