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Hello,
It's the year 2020. And I haven't written in my blog for so long already.
I used to have my old blogs but I deleted them already.
Because it is full of upsetting events, 
Not that I don't accept my past,
But I just feel like I wanted to put them all behind me.
And trying to be a better human. 
Of course!
Thanks to my pasts, those ups and downs. 
I am where I am now.
Even though I haven't really tasted the real success just yet,
But I feel like I have achieved a lot and I have gone a long way now.
Alhamdulilah.

Alhamdulilah for everything. 
Only to Allah, He deserves all the praises,
And I am just a mere human,
Who just work hard to be a better human, to live life to the fullest,
And at the same time,
Enjoying the short time that I have in this world.

This year, 2020.
Is what I can say an unexpected year for everyone.
First off, I didn't plan to get married this year, lol
But I did.
Used to say that I want to get married at the age of 30 years old.
But the fate of Allah is above all,
And He is, of course, the best planner,
So now Alhamdulilah I am happily married to the guy that I once loved,
And now will forever love,
My soul mate, my lifemate, and my Jannah mate hopefully... Amin.
(Will talk about how my searching for love journey end up with happy ending in a different entry)

Second, the virus outbreak.
Covid-19. First time of my life,
And probably every one's life,
We need to stay at home to save a life,
Just... Do... Nothing. Lol
The timing was so right,
Beautifully written by Allah.
After my wedding events,
We received the instructions by the government where MCO was implemented.
Movement Control Order.
And PKP, PKPD, PKPB, and PKPP was done.
Alhamdulilah,
After a few months (almost three months now), 
We almost winning this fight.
Thank you to the front liners of course.

So, I think I want to start writing again,
Because I love writing and expressing myself,
Even though I am not a good writer (a very bad one actually),
But I will just do it out of passion.
Plus nobody will read this anyways, lol
My plan is to find one good quote, or maybe a few,
And relate it with my life, 
Or write something about it. 

For today,
All I want to say is...

Mine blog:                       Stay hydrated and water     ...

Love, EFN (Ejul's Faten Nurhidayah)




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