Tears are coming out of my eyes right now. And lately because of my pregnancy, I am actually in a state of depression. I spend most of my time sleeping during the day. I feel so weak, powerless and unmotivated ALL THE TIME. It's sad. I don't know what to do. I may appear okay, but when I am in my room, wallahi I am not okay. Luckily I have a great support system. My husband, my backbone, my strongest support system. My mother. Who always been there for me. Giving me all the advices, attention and helping me whenever I need. Wallahi i am super duper lucky. But why do I still feel sad? Lost, weak, useless? :'( I have stopped doing my phd work. Because my morning sickness (or all the time sickness), is always been with me. Every time i eat, I will let it out lepas tu. I hate everything. I hate lecturers and academicians. For me they're only good at bringing people down. Sombong, ego. I know not all. But most of them. Tak ramai yang nak bagi good supportive criticism. Most...