♥ Faten Nurhidayah_Mrs Izzul ♥

                                             Alhamdulilah, All praises to Allah. If not Him who allowed us, we would never make it there. So, me and my husband went on our FIRST ever camping trip!!! Poor us because we never get the chance to go camping when we were in our school days, But Alhamdulillah, finally we got to feel that experience. I don't know where to start, but let me talk in rojak for this entry, lol Plannya adalah actually kami akan pergi with my ex-students. However, due to certain circumstances (nak cerita panjang, hee), only two of us je pergi. We went to GIBS Ecotourism Resort, the name of the place. Not so far, only 40 to 45 minutes from our home. Before we went there, dah plan dan excited tiba2 musim hujan datang. Hujan yang sangat lebat dan kadang2 ongoing. So sebab kami nak pegi dekat tepi sungai, of course worry tu ada. Kerisauan...

So today, I am going to write the progression of my previous post, Regarding of my anxiety and twitching problem. Previously, that twitching problem is so severe that it happened like every 5 minutes. But Alhamdulillah,  It's getting better daily. Now I have only a slight twitching. And hopefully, I can fully be cured by this soon. For my anxiety, It will be sugar coating and lie if I say I no longer have it, But I think, it is under control. The ways that I did to control them will be listed as follows. Maybe I can help somebody out there if they also feel this kind of "pain" Acknowledge that you have anxiety. And accept it. (Acknowledgment and acceptance is a very important step in fixing your anxiety. Denying that you are not having them will make you feel stress without realizing it) Ask yourself these questions:- Are you stress? If yes, what makes you stress? Can you list them? Can you identify why those things make you stress? What can you do to remove the stress ...

This is the text that I gave my husband this morning, We rarely fight, actually, we never fight I think? Because he is the most patient man I ever have. And because of that, I will cherish and love my husband for life. My MIH. Sorry sayang because I often have panic attack. I don't want you to stop loving me. And I am glad I open up to you. Because then only you will open up to me. You even cried today. And I am glad. Because you have kept all your sadness for so long already hney. Just let me see your vulnerable side too. As much as I have shown you mine. Love you Bibi.. Dear suami Ku. I am so thankful and grateful to have you in my life. To have another day with you. To be with you.  I know being with someone like me is not easy. I have so many luggage to carry. I have anxiety, panic attack, and often think too much. I am introverted.  I don't know how to mingle. I am very timid and passive. But thank you anyway. For your constant support and love. Undivided attention. Overf...